and i will love you all my life, you are my reason, the one that i live for

So today we did our documentaries again. It was very boring. I have decided that communications bores me and it is nothing I should ever actually devote my life to. Which is good because I never planned to in the first place.

I have come to realize that I feel like I never do anything in school. And I know everyone is saying "oh, but when you get into the real world you'll miss high school". For some strange reason I seriously doubt that I will miss it. I hate being here. I hate being forced to be in classes with people who make me feel dumb. I'm tired of knowing that nine times out of ten the people you would like to avoid you will see.

I am in love with this CD Malp made for me a few weeks, well months now, ago. It's her favorite Christian rock songs. I love it! It has Jeremy Camp, David Crowder Band, Jars of Clay, The Jonathan Project, etc. It's great.

I am not ready to be forced to talk to my councelor about my senior year yet. There are so many things that I don't want to take, but have a strong feeling I will be pushed into anyways. I don't want to take so many classes, I'd really like to only take the four I need, and only two of those do I absolutely have to have for an advanced diploma. How on earth can you say not taking three more classes that may or may not count for me is "taking the easy way out". I've always had a pretty tough schedule, you can not say I'm trying to take it easy. Bull.

I am really excited about the mission trip. I think it'll be an amazing trip. I was looking at Malp's pictures from M-Fuge and it looked like a lot of fun. I cannot wait. Heck, I can't wait for Spring Break because it means no school anyways!

How about Radford got snow yesterday. And what do we get? Rain. Rain. Rain. I hate it. It's horrible. I want snow so much! I think it would be amazing to get out for snow. We need to get some major snow like a blizzard, right in the middle of exam week, that would be amazing.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it.

You know those days when you just wished that with a snap of a finger or a flick of the wrist the world would just pause and let you get yourself together? Those are the moments in life that I most wish didn't exist.

I don't like thinking that I need to stop my life and readjust. I like knowing that my life is running very smoothly and that there isn't anything I could be doing better.

We all make mistakes, sure, but sometimes a mistake isn't nearly as bad as if could have been.

I am glad to see that I can learn through other people. Sometimes it really stops the heartache that you have have been caused.

Anyone hates to see people in pain, especially when you feel that you may have caused it. That's a feeling that I have a strong dislike for.

I wish life were like the movies. More specifically I wish life was like A Walk to Remember. This is basically my cure all movie. Anything bad has come my way, someone upset me, and that's the first thing to hit the dvd player. Something about Mandy Moore and Shane West seem to make my day turn from grey to happily ever after.

I know that life isn't what we think it is all the time, but at least we have it.